Saturday, April 01, 2006

To my beloved Tita Viring

Last March 26, an hour before midnight, the only light in our house is coming from my computer monitor, I'm paying an eerie game on my computer when I heard some sort of a knock outside my window. Then I heard my Tita Cely calling me... She said that my Tita Viring is rejecting any the food being fed to her that I should wake up my mother... and so I did...

My Tita Viring is suffering from Colon Cancer for about a year now, and last December she undegone a her second major surgery, the first one had her tumor removed which is located near her uterus which needed to be closed, they made a hole on her side so that her droppings will go through there... because of it she had a hard time walking, after the second surgery she cant even sit anymore....

So i did called my mother and told her about the situation, I sit back in front of my PC to have my game saved and have it shut down, afterwards I visited my Tita Viring to check whats going on, My two aunts been with us since my one of my Uncles passed away last year (see previous post "Celebrations and Mourning"). I was surprised when I saw everyone in our compound is inside their house crying and waiting, perhaps waiting to whats going to happened next. I saw my Tita Viring on her bed, she breathe deeply and slowly, but i couldn't stand seeing her like that, she is almost thin to her bones consumed of that cursed virus... she wast like that before that, she was strong and healthy, in the outside perhaps....no one really know... So, I left their house trying to hold my tears from falling, but before I even reached the stairs going to my room I started to loose it... I was so sad, I seen some of my aunts and uncles died but never before I been this sad before, because this time they taken one of my dear Tita... she is like a second mother to me... she never had a child of her own, thats she is very close to her nephews and nieces... but on that very night things are different...My wife tried to confort me, and said "That the way it is, and theres nothing we can do..." So I tried to sleep for I need to go work the next day... I just couldn't.

Next morning I heard the alarm on my phone. but somehow I don't feel like going to work so I stayed in bed. but when the sun started to shine, I got out my bed and visit a take another visit to my Titas house. I saw my mother beside Tita Viring holding her hand and calling her name. She was fading away... all her vital signs are getting weaker, pulse and heart are getting slower... and at exactly 8:30 a.m Monday, 27 of March, she's gone...

So why wrote this blog? maybe it because I didn't have the chance to say to her how much I love her, how much I care... even though I wasn't around to take care of her when she needed me most... its the least I can do.

3 comments:

watson said...

condolence, bespren. losing a loved one is really tough, but at least she is in a better place now, and she is no longer suffering from the cancer...

igor said...

:(

meowok said...

my condolences to yoou and your family...