To my beloved Tita Viring

Last March 26, an hour before midnight, the only light in our house is coming from my computer monitor, I'm paying an eerie game on my computer when I heard some sort of a knock outside my window. Then I heard my Tita Cely calling me... She said that my Tita Viring is rejecting any the food being fed to her that I should wake up my mother... and so I did...

My Tita Viring is suffering from Colon Cancer for about a year now, and last December she undegone a her second major surgery, the first one had her tumor removed which is located near her uterus which needed to be closed, they made a hole on her side so that her droppings will go through there... because of it she had a hard time walking, after the second surgery she cant even sit anymore....

So i did called my mother and told her about the situation, I sit back in front of my PC to have my game saved and have it shut down, afterwards I visited my Tita Viring to check whats going on, My two aunts been with us since my one of my Uncles passed away last year (see previous post "Celebrations and Mourning"). I was surprised when I saw everyone in our compound is inside their house crying and waiting, perhaps waiting to whats going to happened next. I saw my Tita Viring on her bed, she breathe deeply and slowly, but i couldn't stand seeing her like that, she is almost thin to her bones consumed of that cursed virus... she wast like that before that, she was strong and healthy, in the outside perhaps....no one really know... So, I left their house trying to hold my tears from falling, but before I even reached the stairs going to my room I started to loose it... I was so sad, I seen some of my aunts and uncles died but never before I been this sad before, because this time they taken one of my dear Tita... she is like a second mother to me... she never had a child of her own, thats she is very close to her nephews and nieces... but on that very night things are different...My wife tried to confort me, and said "That the way it is, and theres nothing we can do..." So I tried to sleep for I need to go work the next day... I just couldn't.

Next morning I heard the alarm on my phone. but somehow I don't feel like going to work so I stayed in bed. but when the sun started to shine, I got out my bed and visit a take another visit to my Titas house. I saw my mother beside Tita Viring holding her hand and calling her name. She was fading away... all her vital signs are getting weaker, pulse and heart are getting slower... and at exactly 8:30 a.m Monday, 27 of March, she's gone...

So why wrote this blog? maybe it because I didn't have the chance to say to her how much I love her, how much I care... even though I wasn't around to take care of her when she needed me most... its the least I can do.

just listening to the John Lennons "Imagine" every time I hear this song started me to think everything thats happening to our country, to the world, to our children and to the future... but theres one part of the song a line that is really got me thinking twice if this song really sends out right message to people... "Imagine there no religion." I just cant "imagine" people in this world does not have religion for its what seperates the wheat from the shaff... If I to imagine if theres no religion, I see chaos and anarchy... there no even peace, we would be like savage animals, survival of the fittest...

I believe its religion is what makes us stand out to other mortal beings... its the very thing that brings order to the world... its the one who teaches us to be good and have respect on all living things...

Updates

ok, its been eons since I last updated my blog... been gathering some topics to write, unfortunately I forgot them all he he he...

got me a new phone...

I got my hand on a new Sony Ericsson K-300I mobile phone, I say for those of you who's on a budget looking for a camera phone this one for you. It has a 2.3 megapixel camera, can shoot both video and still photos, MP3 player, infrared, games, organizer, etc. But its has its downsides too... it has fixed 2.5 MB memory and does not have a radio tuner, also its doesn't come with USB cable and bluetooth. Still its a pretty decent phone to have.

been into racing lately... so to speak...

geez... Im back doing old habits again, been staying late this past couple of moths because i been hooked up into night racing... yup thats right i been racing from 9 pm to 1 am... im driving a pimped up honda civic. I havent lost yet since i started... now for those of you who wondering "teka wala naman kotse si G, and doesn't know how to drive..." yup been staying late playing with my PC... NFS-Underground 2... I guess the blood of a gamer still runs through my vains....

G's Timeline

At dahil ni-tag akech ni Igor... and its long overdue

10 years ago

Finished computer school at then STI, Amy (my best friend in school) migrate to canada... I miss her though...

5 years ago

I met Janet (my wife), watson, bambi, igs, cheri... CampV5 was newly created...
I'm still collecting tamiya and Gundam hobby kits.

Yesterday

Re-edit the magazine I been working. Played Sims 2, ate tahong chips dipped in organic vinegar... spent time with my family... slept at 2 a.m.

Tomorrow

Do the laudry, prepare breafast... take care of Mina (daugther)... prepare lunch... play Sims 2 and Sniper Elite...

Today

Im updating my blog, jam with my officemates, spent the rest of the day sleeping in the office as long as the boss does not caught me in the act.

I'm tagging: Meowok, Nick and whoever wants to be.

G Rants

Ok its been sometime since I updated my blog.... well, actually I can't think something worth blogging these past weeks... My mind is empty... maybe pre occupied with my freelance work as a layout artist. Last week I bought some new software for my layouting and graphics work and a couple of games (ok. its bootleg, but what can I do its all I can afford...yup, I will not reveal where I got it) so i enjoyed playing simcity 4 its cool... but what I want to really put my playing fingers is at Metal Gear Solid 2 which is an all out spy action game... best of all its an RPG... I may not have a PS2 fortunately my new PC can handle the torture these graphic monsters bring... I'm pretty busy right now finishing my magazine... damg editor, i havent received some of the articles needed for this issue... and it due release is this December. anyway as long i get paid for what I do who cares anyway, I've done my part.... so much for my ranting its back to work now....

20 things about me

owen tagged me on this so here goes....

1. I love to play video games
2. I don't eat okra... dont ask me why, i just dont like it
3. I like to travel for a short period
4. I have a Type B blood. as in "BUGHAW"
5. I am a Filipino...and proud of being one.
6. I am working in Makati.
7. I am a graphic and layout artist
8. I have a fetish on boobs, dindt all we guys...
9. I dont drink brandy, whisky and gin
10. Im a Harry Potter fan.
11. I love my wife and daugther.
12. I consider Japanese cuisine healthy.
13. I am one of the many captured market of PC games and Sony
14. I still have a reprint version of the 1st superman comics.
15. I love to draw...but still not so good at it.
16. I love singing.
17. I like to upgrade my PC
18. I like to get a PS2 on my birthday
19. I hated Math.
20. I want to get that graphire pad....

Huh.... that was a quick 6 minutes.

geez my list is short... pwede na ba apat

Euge
Malou
Akang
jonnie
Bonna
most all WATSON....

Ramadan a Test of Faith

Today marks the first day of the month long fasting in the muslim communities and countries known as the month of Ramadan. Fasting during the month of Ramadan is the one of the pillars of Islam, the other four includes the Shahadah (Tentimonial), "Salah" (5 obligatory prayers), "Zakah" (giving alms or charity) and the "Hadj" (Pilgrimage to Mecca). There is no fixed month for the month of Ramadan it can be celebrated as early as January and as late as December, because the Islamic calendar is based in the Lunar calendar. How do you know when to start fasting? it is when the cresent of the moon is visible over the horizon is the sign the first day and on its next cresent is where the fasting ends.

During this month, muslims fast during the day they are not allowed to take any food or drink water, not even a piece as small as salt is not allowed to be swallowed. aside from food and drink all earthly activities are prohibited. How can muslims survive for almost a month if you are not allowed to these things? Of course we cant survive, that why is was only prohibited during the day, and just before the sun sets, a muslim in fasting is allowed to break his fast, hence the word "breakfast", having 2 pieces of date fruit and a glass of milk to break his fasting. During the night all that is prohibited at daytime are allowed before the sun rises. In muslim countries like Saudi Arabia and Indonesia... stores and shopping malls are closed during the day and opens all night long. I see, so what is the reason for fasting? It is so ordered by Allah (God) that during these times one is tested in his faith to Allah, because here it doenst matter if you fast or not, because your salvation is your responsibility, you can hide to your fellow men but not in the eyes of God for "Allah knows all things the seen and the unseen"... Truly the Holy Month of Ramadan is a Test of Faith.

Celebrations and Mourning

A couple of weeks ago my elder brother arrived from abroad for a 3 week vacation. as always parents ussualy prepare their childrens favorite dish. but this time its special, his first born about 8 months old is with him, this is the first time will be seeing him, everyone is excited because its my parents second grandchild and my first real nephew... its a celebratin of new member of the family.

Last sunday, its my cousins 21st birthday... the preparation if kinda bit grand, there were pulutan and beer. a guys 21st birthday is somehow a like a gals 18 birthday, its a of a guys debut. Since the party will start later in the afternoon, we decided to visit our uncle for a while together with our wife and kids then visit the mall afterwards. Unfortunately, as we were on our way to my uncles house, we received a surprising text message, its from my sick uncle oldest daugther, she said that he pass away this morning at the hospital... all smiles turn into sorrow, for our family are really close together, we used to live under one roof in my lolas house... as one family is celebrating a new member, the other celebrates the coming at age and the lost of loved one in latter.

Hail to Pinoy Boxers

Congratulations to our 3 kababayans who fought the good fight yesterday... i really like to imagine that everytime theres an event like these specially ni boxing that we filipinos get together and stop thinking about politics and problems in our country. It was during these times that all of us are sitting together and watching together as one country, as one people. I wish and pray that we be like these not only for the sport but for whaever we do in our daily lives...

Paquiao Your the MAN!!!! keep it up, same goes to the 2 other pinoy boxers...

New updates

Hi, I took time to change my and edit my blog (as if its take that long really). I grew tired of the way my blog looks... so i changed it... nope i think i dont need a tag board yet... as you can see there are only three people visiting my blogs... hmmm no one really visits it... soon i will jazzing up this blog a litle bit, maybe put some photos to liven it up... as for now I'll just have to stick to my photoless web log...

Gastronomic Spree on the budget

For you folks working in Makati CBD, if you happen to love native dishes heres a new place for you. drop by at Eva Maries Restaurant, its at the corner of Makati Ave and Sen. Gil Puyat Ave. opposite Petron gas station... for only 199 Php you can eat all the food till your hearts content. I recommened this for those of you who have montrous appetite but has a tiny weenie budget (yes, its an exageration...) with the all time favorite native food, pleasant ambience, live acoustic music im sure youll want to come back again and again besides the place is pretty accessible. yes they also have "eat all you can" merienda from 3 to 6 pm at 75 Php... their pancit palabok is kinda saucy but satisfying... their tokwa't baboy (tofu and pork) is very good... next time i'll try the buffet lunch.... chow!!!

My first publishing stint

after almost two weeks of extra hours of work and work at home till saturday of layouting and editing, it finally come to an end... my first freelance work as a graphic artist and a layout editor, my first magazine. its now on press so im very excited to see what will it look like. the title of the mag is Heute is publication of the Carl Duisberg Association of the Philippnes (CDAP) formely Carl Duiberg Gesellschaft (CDG). and will be distributed among the members both here and in Germany. Being a freelance graphic artist is very tiring, but the fulfillment is imaginable... theres nothing like accomplishing something you really, really wanted to do.

New Anime channel on cable TV

Theres a new cable channel dedicated to anime... HERO channel is on test broadcast featuring tagalized anime... some the titles being aired are during the test broadcast are Bubu Cha Cha, Zenki, Tokyo Underground, the Wanders (El Hazard), Gundam Seed, Bayblade, Crash Gear, Naruto, Slayers and Dear Boys.... Baki the Grappler, Voltes V, Yugi Oh, Love Hina will be aired during the regular braodcast..... somehow the official launching of Hero channel is not yet been annouced.... animes titles on ABS and GMA will be seen here.... its like the local version of animax... I believe this channel is being operated by the Lopes group... so the its more of an ABS owneship rather an independent outfit.... better check with your calbe operator on how to get this channel... ours is on channel 28.

Good samaritan...

Im on my way to the office this morning. I travelled from Binangonan Rizal to Makati everyday, yup its nat a regular walk in the park thing... It took me three rides to get here. First is long FX ride from Rizal to Mandaluyong... actually it'll just takes 45 minute to travel if wasnt for the traffic. Second is train ride (MRT) from Esda-Shaw to Buendia and lastly an FX ride to my office. As I hoped in I notice this lady asking the driver where she'll supposed to get off, it seems this lady is new in the area or in Manila for that matter. The passengers hand over their fares, the driver making sure everyone is paid ask if there someone who is not yet paid. well everyone handed their fare to him except this new lady... she checked her bag looking for loose coins but its just not enough for the ride, by the way the fare is 10 pesos from MRT buendia to LRT Pasay. Instead she handed a 500 peso bill, the is reluctant to accpet the bill for he doesnt have enough money to change it. One of the passenger on front gave the driver 10 pesos and said to the lady that his fare has been paid for. Having seeing this, I came to think that is he (the passenger) is "galante" and is gentleman enough to give away his 10 peso...but to some others they would have think that hes just plain stupid having him to pay for her fare who is total stranger... for me personally he is one of those near extinct species of people who are called Good Samaritan....

Things I'll do if I quit my job...(if ever...)

these are the things i'm gonna do if ever i quit my job...

1. Start my own business (computer rentals/internet cafe).
2. Enchance my image editing/layout disigning skills.
3. Build websites.
4. Study 3d animation.
5. Assembling my Perfect Grade Strike Gundam.
6. Assembling my Perfect Grade Wing Gundam Custom.
7. Spend more time with Mina (my daugther).
8. Events Organizing
9. Fixing my R.C.
10. Assemble and sell PCs.
11. Surfing the net.
12. Write an article or two (if questor still exits).
13. Selling wafers, squid balls, kikiam, kwek kwek (fried quail eggs), fried chicken, fried rice in a box and tapsilog.

but then again... i can't just quit my job... hu, hu, hu, hu.... :(

Abode CS2 Roadshow

Yesterday, Adobe had launch the their new version of graphics suites called "Adobe Creative Suite 2". The event was entitled... well "Adobe CS2 Roadshow" this event is also held recently in Thailand and next is Malaysia here in Manila it was held on ONSTAGE Greeenbelt 1.... by the way for all of you humans who dont know what Adobe is...well its not a metal alloy you silly human... is a graphics company who develops the well knows industry standard image editing software called Photoshop. ok back to my topic... so I (me alone) attended the event and well as freelance graphic and layout artist my forst impression is WOW! second is COOL! and third is GOTTA HAVE ONE OF THOSE.... anyway one of the presentors Marriane Young, is really good, she knows her stuff... hmmm unfortunately i didnt get her e-mail add... i might learn something from her to improve my layout designing skills... lots stuff have been given away one is that cellphone hanging thingy.... t-shirts (PLM students bagged all of them) jackets, tumblers and umbrellas. They also had a raffle draw at the end of the event guess what, almomst all attendees were graphics enthusiast and professionals but the gal ( yes its a girl) who won the major price which is an "original" Adobe CS2 Software is a "PHARMACIST!!! yeah i know well all asked the same question..."what the heck shes doin here?" well i guess that her fate... but I still want that graphics pad.... all hail to adobe!!!

Being a Parent...

Last friday, I dropped by the SM megamall, I want to buy something for my little girl... I just came from a seminar earlier so I have ample time to look for something she might get interested and play with. Should I get a Doll? or something educational like a pile-up toy... anything... till i received a call from my mobile phone... its my wife... she sounds worried... I told her whats wrong??? she said that my daugther has very high fever, and registered 40 degrees in the thermometer... I told to bring to the hospital... I said bring her to Medical City instead... but hey that kinda far from here, by the way I live in Binangonan Rizal... there hospitals near our house but I rather get her the best service my health card can afford... why not? almost a thousand pesos is deducted from my salary just for the health maintenance why cant I get the best...

We stayed there for 4 days... children these age (12+ months) really get so crancky because of the trauma... specially when they need to insert needles... it really traumatized them.... I my lillte girl's case, it was just 4 months ago since her last confinement... naawa talaga ako at the same time worried.... minsan naiisip ko what if kung wala akong health card... geez... inabot ng 10K ang hospital bills ko.... yun nga good thing i had this card so waived na bill ko.... sa PF (Professional Fee) ng doctor is aroung 5K na cover naman ng PhilHealth... so i just paid around 1.7K these is for the excess dun sa room.... imagine the difference....

A word of advice, if its possible for you to get a health card for your children, do so... its worth the cost... individual plans are costly pero worth it naman e... it's part of being a parent you should always think what is best for your family specially for you children....

wala lang... wala akong magawa e

its 10:26 am manila time....
im sitting in front of my desk, im just staring at it... my lonely desktop
there nothing on it...except for a few bits of dust... then i lean back on my chair, took a deep breath and start looking at the ceiling, i cant stare at the lights too long, it'll just blurred my vision....
its 10:33 a.m. still im sitting in my quiet office cubicle.... i tried to look around... its neat...
everthing is in order, my files are in my drawer... pencils, pens, and paper clips are in their proper places... again my desk is still same as it was minutes ago... clean and tidy....
then as my eyelids started to close.... i felt something strange... i stared to shiver... and my body is sweating...its not pain but somehow i feel so unconfortable and restless... i told myself something is going on here and i cant explain it.... then everthing is going in circles... im getting dizzy.... i asked myself " whats going on, whats wrong with me, why am i acting this way.... i'm not hungry or something... but why?" then a rush of foul smell rushed all over the office... everybody became weary and uneasy... some say "whats happening!" others said "what going on here?" everybody is looking at one another including me....it was at that moment i realized something has happend to me.... something inside myself is trying and wanted to be unleashed, for as long i fight it the more damage is doing inside my body.... i can't take it anymore i have to do it, i have to accept the circumstances of what is about to happen... i have to let it out! so i take a deep breath and shouted"Putang ina! NATAE AKO!!!!"

My new blogsite

Ok, this is my new blog site... i just hope i can update this more often unlike my other blogsites lost in space and forgotten forever... anyway i hope i can post pictures here soon.

i hope you enjoy reading my blogs...